Who (or what) is the feeling of I, my or me?

The horse and rider model for self-awareness of the feeling of I, my and me!

I’m John Glanvill, author of The Calmness in Mind Process for overcoming Anxiety, OCD and Depression.

In this video we are going to explore our mind, our thoughts, consciousness, unconsciousness, our psyche, knowledge, our conditioning – basically, we are going to explore, what goes on inside our head – and importantly, what part of us might we perceive to be, the true feeling of “I”?

Because, if you experience anxiety, OCD or depression, there IS a part of you which has that perspective – (I have OCD) – and it is the source of all your associated negative thoughts and feelings.

However, there is also a part of you that doesn’t want it, perhaps the part who bought into these videos, who wants change, who’s had enough?

Therefore, it would make sense for you, to emotionally and intellectually align your perspectives, context and beliefs with the part you want to be, rather than continuing to believe that “same old story” of the part you were.

If you listen to what people say, it’s quite funny really – for example; I hear people say things like – (I) don’t know what’s wrong with (me)? — Well, which part of you is (I) and which part of you is (me)?

Or they say – (I’m) frustrated, (my) mind won’t shut up and it’s making (me) feel anxious….

(I), (my) and (me) – all in the same sentence.

But, that is three separate perspectives – and three different contexts, all in one sentence. The person is unknowingly looking for a single answer from a problem that needs three different solutions.

So, as we move towards having more clarity within ourselves – we need to notice when we are doing this – through having a clearer understanding, of what our thoughts really are and where they are coming from.

Especially with respect to anxiety and OCD – because, we have so many contradictory and opposing thoughts, all at the same time. Which ones are real – if any?

“What if you get contaminated” – “You know you won’t, you never have before” – “but what if you do?” – “No, I’m not going to clean it?” – “Well, maybe just this time” – “What’s wrong with you?” – “Nothing, it’s not about me, something bad will happen to Fred” – “Yeah, but you don’t even like Fred….”

Can you know what I mean! There is no fixed perspective, no datum, no single point of view.

And – if our perspective, our point of view keeps changing, we will always be in some sort of duality or internal conflict, and this (often unnoticed) conflict, perpetuates anxiety, fear and this exhausts our biology.

Up until now, I’ve been asking you to try and take a single fixed perspective, that of the Observer, the part of you that just watches all these thoughts – stays out of all the stories.

Perhaps you have managed that, or had glimpses of it – or perhaps, you have no idea of what I am talking about?

Well, here is where we start to explore what happens inside our head, and I would like to share with you a model you can use to understand your own mind – or should I say your own minds?

As ever, these perspectives are just models for you to use, don’t get hung up on terminology, or even the accuracy – Let’s just try it – and if it works, that’s good enough – we are looking for calmness, not to rewrite mainstream psychology (which as you know doesn’t always work) – otherwise your Doctor, Psychologist or the medication they prescribed would have fixed you – and you wouldn’t be watching this video.

So, let’s explore the question of “Who, (or what) is the feeling of I?” What is the single, viewpoint, or perspective you can try to remain in?

Which aspect of me, is the real me? Is ‘me’ my conscious mind, my unconscious mind, my body, my personality, my observer, my thoughts, my experiences, my OCD, my depression, my anxiety? Me as a Father, a son, a husband, a friend?

Can you see how quickly we may unknowingly jump from one aspect of ourselves to another, where each may have differing behaviors and needs, without us even realizing?

To say who we really are is very difficult – and quite abstract – as I stand here, gravity is pulling me around and I am somehow compensating, I feel a little hungry, I feel a little stressed, because this is the fourth time I have recorded this video, I am trying to look natural, when, actually I feel uncomfortable.

This feeling of ‘I’ has so many differing things going on, and it is almost impossible to identify which of those ‘aspects’ of me, is actually “the feeling of me!” – especially when for most of the time “I feel out of control of me!”

Therefore, if we can’t answer that question, because it is too hard, perhaps we need to take a new perspective – by asking, “What isn’t me?”

Well, as I drop off to sleep – initially, (I) am awake, then, as (I) drop off, (I) seems to disappear off somewhere…. Then, (I) come back and observe some dreams, then

(I) disappear off again…… And finally, this feeling of (I) returns, as the body awakens in the morning.

But, where am (I) whilst THE BODY is sleeping? ((shrug))

It’s the same with a general anaesthetic, you get an injection, and then within ten seconds, you are not there! Where do you go? And what is the part of you that goes there?

Then you wake up a few hours later, with no recollection of what happened and time is all distorted – you just lost five hours of your life, you weren’t there – but your body was – it carried on without you, even under real immense intrusive trauma, like an operation – it carried on without you, it managed well without you!

What this tells me is very important – The feeling of ‘I’ is not my body – and my body doesn’t even need this thing called ‘I’ for its survival, it’s health or even it’s happiness.

My body can sleep without me being around, it can stay alive during surgery without me being around – and it can repair itself without me – like if a person is placed into an artificial coma.

My body does not need ‘me’ – it functions perfectly well without me being there – may be even better! – Really think about this.

 For many anxious people – they can’t sleep, because they are there, in their heads, they worry about illness, which actually stresses the body, which may lead to illness.

Our bodies don’t need us! We just think they do!

As babies, our body just knew what to do to keep us alive, it grew us, and it repaired any damage along the way, like a burn or a grazed knee.

In addition, it managed our bacteria, it fought off viruses and foreign bodies – it grew, went through puberty – all without us even knowing what was going on!

“I” didn’t do all that – my body did it. My body does not need me! Your body does not need you…..

However, although my body doesn’t need me – this sensation of I, this transient feeling of I, well, it needs my body – otherwise, how could I walk, talk, dance, kiss, travel and experience life, engage with my family and experience my own creativity?

Can you see why this is so important? Anxious people freak out if they can’t control their bodies – when, in fact, their body doesn’t even need them! Plus, their bodies are responding to their freaking out story, as if it was true – and gets even more anxious – what a dysfunctional cycle!

And even, if you were to argue with me, “no John, it’s my choice to move my arm or wiggle my fingers” – well, how do you do it?

It just happens, consider how many commands are passed to muscles and tendons from the brain to the body – to just wiggle your fingers, you are not doing it, your body is doing it for you (it’s even choosing what wiggle pattern to use, when to start and when to stop) yet, your feeling of “I” is taking credit for doing all of this – when it’s not!

It’s like when you catch something really surprisingly or making a rapid avoidance maneuver in your car, these things happen automatically, by your unconscious brain and body, yet our sensation of “I” seems to want to take credit for them – “wow. I’m a really cool driver!”

We need to become aware of this – and realize, that we need to trust our body and our reactions much more – and take less responsibility, for thinking that without our thoughts, our bodies wouldn’t know what to do.

So, our body doesn’t need us, but this feeling of “I” needs our body.
Back in video 6 – I suggested that, as the observer, we can think of our body as our

‘pet’ and that we should be nice to our pet.

Well let’s expand that model, to one where – our body is a horse – and our feeling of “I” (or the observer) is the rider of that horse.

No rider can totally control any horse, but what the rider does (and how she does it), massively influences the behaviours and the emotional stability of the horse.

An inexperienced rider may become easily overwhelmed by a startled horse, however, a professional jockey can stay calm – even if the horse is scared, wild or out of control.

And what about a horse whisperer? Well, that’s a whole new level. How calm are they? Irrespective of the emotional state any horse may be experiencing?

Can you see where I am going with this? At best, as the observer, you are the rider of your horse, but, you are not your horse, and, in fact, your horse doesn’t even need you.

But, you need your horse, your vehicle, to navigate and propel (this feeling of I) through your life – enabling it to communicate and interact with whatever is important to you – assuming you know what that is, and that’s a whole other topic we will be covering.

Now, there is always going to be one person out there who says, “Well I can’t do that because my OCD is about horses and animals” – because that is what OCD does, it sabotages!

For you – find your own metaphor – or perhaps refer to yourself as capital (I) and your body as little (i) – or you are the Self with a capital S and your body is your self with a little s – there are lots of ways we can do this, be creative.

From my own feeling of “I” the language I use internally, is very precise, I don’t say my foot hurts, I say “The foot hurts, or the horse’s foot hurts” – it’s not my problem, it’s my bodies problem, and my body knows how to fix it more than I do.

I don’t say, “my mind won’t stop thinking” – because, if it was my mind, I would say “mind stop” and it would! So, I say “The Mind” or “The horses mind” won’t stop thinking.

I don’t say, “I am an idiot” – I say, “The horses mind is proposing that I am an idiot, wow, that’s none of my business.”

The rider doesn’t have to listen to the horse, and even if the horse is very anxious, the rider can calmly influence it to take action, regardless of what fears that horse has.
The horse is saying, I don’t want to go into that horse box, it scares me, those other horses bully me, those mice in the stable scare me, what if I get contaminated mud on my hooves….

But the rider doesn’t need to listen to or believe the horse’s stories (although they may be true to the horse) – the rider he can stay calm, its not his problem, and he can trick and placebo the horse (the body) back into calmness – then, influence the horse into the horse box – the rider wins the day, not the horse.

Can you see how this applies to OCD and anxiety?

So, two new questions emerge; how can I better understand my horse? And, how can I retrain my horse, so I have a better chance of influencing what it does and how it feels?

Because although I am not my horse, I do feel the feelings my horse experiences and I would rather my horse was calm, though if he isn’t – as the rider, I can still be calm.

During the first seven years of your life, your horses’ little brain, goes from knowing nothing, except, intrinsically how to be alive, grow and repair – to that of a little person, who is beginning to gain a sense of who he/she is, and how to operate and function within his or her family, school and local community.

This conditioning of the brain, by the age of seven, could be compared to being like the operating system in a computer, like DOS, Windows or Mac OS, or if your parents were a little unconventional Linux.

It’s installed in your brain and becomes the framework you use to learn and to communicate – and this operating system forms the architecture that will support everything else you learn in your life – and for the rest of your life.

In those first seven years, the type of operating system installed was dependent on your circumstances, mine was programmed to follow rules, be nice, fit in, be a good boy, respect authority, work hard – whereas some of my friends were programmed differently, challenge everything, it’s OK to say no, authority is no better than you, if you want something take it.

Neither is right or wrong, it’s just how we were programmed by our programmed parents – who were programmed by their parents, which is why we are like our parents, even if we are in denial about it, like we discussed in video 7.

Then, at about seven or eight years old, a funny thing happens, we reach an age where our vocabulary has formed and our mind is becoming clever enough to talk in ways were we start to use more reason and logic.

At five years old a child just says, “no, I don’t want to go to bed.” Whereas, by seven, they will say, “you said, if I cleaned my room, I could stay up an extra hour to watch tv.”

So what’s forming inside our brains is a sense of self, based on the programming of our operating system and the development of this new concept called ‘inner dialogue’ – or us talking to ourselves, inside our own heads based on logic and reason.

We might call this inner dialogue the beginnings of our ego, that part of us which thinks it knows what is best for us, and will try to keep us safe, based on what the “operating system” was ‘told’ that safe is and based on logic and reason.

So, a child begins to play less and becomes more serious – though not necessarily becoming happier, because happiness is not based on logic and reason.

Another name for the ego might be our “protective personality” the voice in our mind that says, “you better not do that or xyz might happen.”

But, what I want you to grasp, is this “inner dialogue” is not you, it’s your ego, your protective personality, it is part of the brain, your body (your horse) whose rule set was primed by the programming it received in those first years of your life.

Let’s expand this even further – after the age of 7 the voice of your ego, in your head, begins to fragment into lots of separate and individual characters.

The first aspect of your brain, your horse, your self with a little s – may be labeled the storyteller or the narrator of your ego. You might call it the primary voice, in the unconscious mind of your brain – which is not you.

It can’t be you, because you are the observer, who is listening to that voice, how can you be that voice and the listener to that story at the same time?

The narrator part of your ego was the first aspect of your identity to be formed – it’s like; a young child, walks into the kitchen, looks around – then the ego, the protective personality, the voice of the body – talks to you – the narrator may say things like:

“Mum looks a little stressed, she’s cooking and last time you spoke to her when she was cooking, she got all angry.”

Then it might say, “Dad’s just in from work and you know he doesn’t like it if you interrupt him whilst he is watching the news.”

Then your narrator might say – “Why don’t you go and draw them a picture, because last time you did that, they were really happy?”

Can you see that the narrator is not you? You are the observer of what your narrator is telling you, about the situation you are in – and from the viewpoint of the conditioning of your operating system and all your previous life experiences.

But, importantly, you don’t have to believe it, or respond to anything your ego says; you can learn to just ignore it. The rider does not have to respond to the horse.

As we get older, the ego expands and fragments.

The voice of the narrator is joined by another aspect of your ego, that we might call the judge or the critic.

Back then, when we were young, the judge actually played a useful role in our development, it compared us with our peers and positioned us in what we might call, an appropriate position in the social ‘pecking order.’

The judge voice, might say – “you are cleverer than him, but she is smarter than you, you can run faster than her, but not as fast as him.”

Of course, when the ego judged and you came out on top, that felt quite good, but when you didn’t come up to scratch, it would begin to beat you up, and turn that judgment inwards.

And as I have been saying, pay attention to who is talking, who is listening and who is the observer of it all.

You can only “beat yourself up” in your mind, if there is one aspect of you doing the beating and another taking the beating – and if they both have differing needs and opposing perspectives.

So, let’s bring in another character, another aspect of your ego (your protective personality) your little eight-year-old – your horse, little self or little (i) or whatever, you choose to call it.

This third character is called the victim. When the judge wins, you feel good, but when the judge loses you feel bad, but the judge doesn’t like feeling bad. So, it transfers the blame to the victim – then turns on the victim and says “you idiot, you should be better than that…”

And so, begins a ‘toing and froing’ as the judge beats the victim and the victim either blames other people or descends into guilt, shame and feelings of self- consciousness and low self-esteem.

Can you see how people go through these cycles in their heads, not even aware that each facet of their ego has a different view point, a different agenda and each a separate parental conditioning?

But as you step out, to the observer perspective, you can watch these games play out in your body’s mind, the horse’s mind – and in that moment you are watching the internal soap opera (which your body is responding to, as if it was the truth) rather than being caught up in it.

And there are many more characters too, in your ego, let me introduce the pleaser, the part of you that was trained to help, to be nice, to make others feel good.

So your pleaser may say “can I help you?” At the same time your judge says “but they never help us!” and your victim says, “why can’t they see how tired I am?” And the narrator is saying, “Why can’t I stop thinking?”

Four different view points, from four differing perspectives, wanting four different outcomes – all talking at the same time – and most people aren’t even aware it’s going on.

How can you transition from unconsciously being trapped in it, to consciously becoming the Observer of it?

In later videos I will be going into more depth about these characters in your mind, for now, let me give you a few more to consider.

The rebel, that wants to be free and hedonistic, living in the now. The princess, who has feelings of entitlement. The controller, who wants everything to be perfect.

The wounded child, the saboteur, the fixer, and the worrier, the doubter – the list goes on.

For now though – and from the observer perspective, watch these ego characters, name them if you can, Jeremy the judge, Vicky the victim, OCD guy – and watch how they play off each other.

So, a quick recap, between the ages of 0 to 7 our brain gets conditioned by our environment, then through years 7 to 15 our characters form, creating these differing (and often opposing) aspects of ourselves – which result in us forming an identity for ourselves by the age of around 16.

This whole process is (mainly driven from our unconscious) our ego, the little eight- year-old – it is trying to keep us safe – but is it a productive, useful or happy safe? And is how it was “conditioned” back then, serving us well at this time of our life?

For most, the ego, is who they think they are – and as you are discovering, it is possible to become the observer of it – it is possible to refrain from believing what it says – to cease accepting whatever identity it created for you and whatever story it has about you and your life.

In addition, by about the age of 16 your values and beliefs have become well integrated into your identity, and left unchecked, will unconsciously drive your decision making and therefore the outcomes of your life.

Whatever stories your little characters formed about you when you were a teen, are probably still running in your head, regardless of your age now.

I remember that “fairness” was a value that was important to me when I was a young man, plus “to work hard” and “be good, follow rules” – but, these weren’t my values – they were programmed into me – but I unconsciously tried to live up to them, even when they weren’t serving me well – back then, I didn’t even know I was doing it.

These days it’s all different, I know who I am, I know what I want – fairness is no longer important to me, nor are following rules, or having to work hard (sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t) as the rider, I have the choice.

As the rider, I have developed my own adult values of honesty, integrity, creativity, calmness etc. and as we progress, we will go deeper into how you can recognise and refine your own values and beliefs.

So, by the age of 7 our operating system is in place, then by 16 our unconscious ego, our characters, values and beliefs are well formed – and we might liken that to Microsoft Office. It sits on top of the operating system and it is the fabric that pulls everything together – the VPN virtual private network that holds everything together – our identity.

Then, we install the software programs of how to be a man, a woman, how to play sport, how drive a car, how to be in a relationship, how to get what you want, how to avoid conflict, how to create conflict.

Then, over the next 10 years, from 16 to 26 we install more software packages, we go to college or university to learn trades or we start working as a plumber or a lawyer – once again, learning how to be that person and how to do that job.

How to be a husband, a wife, a mother, father – we do our best to learn how to do these things, some times we are good at it, other times we struggle.

But this is what I need you to understand.

You may become a brilliant lawyer, you may have a great day at work – and as you drive back home, for the first ten minutes you feel great, the software worked well.

But, then, your identity kicks in and it might say, “well you could have done better.” “You should have been more fair” or “you’re just playing at being a lawyer” or “those other lawyers are real lawyers, you’re just pretending to be a lawyer – you’ll get rumbled soon.”

Then your unconscious mind, your ego, your protective personality, your little eight year old – kicks in to try and keep you safe – which may include many of the sabotaging behaviours we discussed in videos five and six.

We have another deeper level too. Which we might call our personality and that splits into two segments, who we feel we are, the behaviours we have carried around since birth, like being funny, outgoing, quiet, introverted, extroverted etc.

And the second, being the personality we were told we were “ a good boy does as he is told” or “we are not loud like them” or “we are a family of academics” or “we are working class.” You could say that these are “conditioned” parts of our personality. And just because it was who we were trained to be, doesn’t mean we have to believe that.

I feel that, who we “feel” we are, is closer to the truth, than who we “think” we are and we will be doing a lot of work around understanding this in the future

If we lump everything together, the operating system, the ego, the personality, the identity, the skill programs – perhaps we can call this our mind?

Even that can be split into two concepts – our conscious mind and our unconscious mind.

For most people the logical, rational, conscious thinking mind is what their “feeling of I” is most aligned with – but consider this.

Our unconscious mind operates one million times faster and is one million times more powerful than our conscious thinking mind – so are you actually aligned with the most powerful part of your brain – or just the part that run pre-conditioned programs of logic and reason, which may be years out of date?

We all know that our best ideas just arise (out of nowhere) when we are least expecting them, in the shower, or when we are not consciously thinking about anything.

Yet, most people with anxiety and OCD are not accessing the most powerful parts of themselves because they are so caught up in logic and reason, trying to find answers based in logic and reason – and this is known as OCD – or depression through exhaustion of worrying.

Please don’t let all this information overwhelm you – however, it is worth putting the effort in to see yourself in new ways – and specifically finding a more cohesive sense of who the real you really is;

OK, let’s regroup – I am asking, “Who or what is the feeling of I?” Who is the rider of the horse? And as you can see, there are lots of candidates, all trying to claim that position.

So, let’s finally return to the Observer, the rider of the horse, I with a capital I, or Self with a capital S – who might that be?

You know about the 8 year old – who we might start to rebrand as your ego, your protective personality, your little horsey – well, we also have a 20 year old inside of us too.

For those of you under 30 this might not make any sense, but for everybody over 30, it will.

There is something inside of us, a feeling, an awareness that never ages. We hear people say “I still feel I’m 20 on the inside,” my father, just a few days before his death said to me “this is so crazy being disabled in this old body, because I still feel like I am 20 on the inside!”

If you are not sure about what I am saying, because you are young, or if your anxiety has so dominated your life that you have missed this – just talk to friends or parents – they will all tell you it is there.

So, let’s ponder, what this 20-year-old, feeling of I might be?

I am told that every cell in our body is renewed every seven years, some cells every few days, some every few weeks, some every few years – but every seven years we are a biologically, cellularly a new person – it’s why we age.

But this 20-year-old self – never ages, it gets to 18 / 19 / 20 or thereabouts and stops, then just stays with you, never changing.

Perhaps, if something never changes, it means that it has no form, it’s formless, kind of like an idea, it’s more of an energy (an awareness) than a physical or solid biological form, such as, your body.

And if something is a formless energy, you might see how it can remain the same and never age. You may be able to sense too, that if it isn’t part of your body – it could function separate from the body, it could remain still, even if your biological body was anxious.

Like the calmness at the center of a tornado.

And this is the sensation, or awareness – that I am proposing is your Observer.

A timeless energy, that just is, within you, that just watches all that is occurring, but is separate from your body – and no matter your age, it always feel the same – the observer or watcher of yourself.

Is just watches, as the whole drama plays out, from all the afore mentioned aspects of your brain, your personality, consciousness, unconsciousness, the narrator, the judge, the victim, the pleaser, your ego, your little 8 year old.

Another word we could use to describe the observer is – awareness – “where are you placing your awareness?”

Like I said earlier, is your mind being beaten up in the soap opera of your mind or are you watching the soap opera in your mind, from the safe distance of your awareness, the observer?

And if you are more advanced, we might call it the silent, non-judgmental, accepting observer.

For some people you might find this easy to understand, or similar to things you have studied in the past, for others, this may be a whole new perspective? Either, way I would really ask you to try this on for size, really play with it, keep watching this video.

Beneath your unconscious, beneath your ego, beneath your conditioning, beneath the story you have about yourself, beneath all of your unasked for thoughts – there is an awareness, a stillness that just observes / watches – and this is the source of who you are.

Until, one day, when you die, your body dies and this formless feeling of I just evaporates, the lights go out, it’s game over and all is well.

Or, perhaps the body dies and this formless, observer, this energy, moves on to another plane (shrug) – in that scenario we might call it your soul, Prana, life essence?

Either way, whether you just evaporate upon death, or whether you are an immortal Soul that moves on – this formless observer, is where I want you to learn to spend some time – and learn to connect with – because it is the true feeling of I.

Your Observer, is the rider of the horse, your horse doesn’t need you, but without your horse, there is very little this feeling of I can actually do in this world.

From this feeling of “I” you can be calm, even if your body isn’t, as the observer, you can watch thoughts arise, you can watch your ego trying to keep you safe and you can watch your conditioned mind trying to tell you what is good, bad, right, wrong, having an opinion.

But if you want calmness in your life – you need to stop identifying, with the story of who you think you are, stop identifying with the conditioning of your mind, stop believing that thoughts mean anything, stop trying to answer or stop “The” thoughts, just watch them arise and let them go. As the rider, do you even need any opinions?

Ultimately, we don’t need to give anything any meaning, we can sit on a bus and watch the world go by, whatever is happening right now, is what is happening right now, whether we like it or not – it is the only truth like we proved in video 10.

So, let’s observe the many aspects of our mind – we might not like what’s happening, but we don’t need an opinion, or a narrative – just a decision, in this moment, do I engage, accept or move away – from that which is happening right now?

Observe – as your ego, your little horse tries to pull you into a “poor me” story about the past or a “fear story” about the future – when the only reality is right now.

There is only the now – you can only respond in the now, to the now. Everything is else is just a story.

Observe your little pet, your horse, doing it’s old conditioned dance, you can’t fully control your horse, but you can calm it down, you can influence it towards what you want from life and away from the same old stories it keeps trying to tell you, trick it, placebo it– retrain it through exposure therapy as we detailed in video 8 – it was trained once before, it can be trained again.

It will take a lot of practice and I will be going into lot’s more detail in later videos, for now, you might need to watch this a few times to let all the information sink in, don’t get stuck in it – become the observer of it.

And finally, your homework.

I would like you to listen to the two short audiobooks listed in the notes below this video – each book only takes a couple of hours to read.

Then, I would like you to practice this simple meditation

Get yourself comfortable somewhere, and then just watch the world happen. Try to align with your observer, your inner stillness, the 20 year old and just watch what happens out there.

Have no opinion, have no expectation, just accept what is – play with it, see what happens.

You’ll probably find that your little horse will come up with all sorts of judgments, stories, thoughts, expectations, and anxieties.

As the rider, these are not your problems – and only become your problems, if you place your awareness on them! The horse is only energized if you place your awareness on what it is thinking and worrying about.

We are learning to separate the rider from the horse – you are learning the skill of where to place your attention, your awareness.

In any moment, you could place your awareness on that pain in “the” neck, which is what the horse wants – or you could place your awareness in the beauty of a cloud in the sky.

Two very differing outcomes – but learning how to command your awareness and where to place it, is a skill and any skill increases with practice – and in later videos I will be teaching you many other types of meditation in more detail.

So, let’s become the observer – practice where you place your attention – be the rider and influence your horse.